Oh Love..!!

Oh Love,

I do get it,

I do get what you doing?

I do get why you doing it?

What I don’t get it is what you gain by doing it?

I miss so much staring at you & then getting caught,

I miss so much the fabulous smell of yours,

I miss so much the spontaneous reactions,

What I don’t get is, why can’t I sense it anymore?

Sometimes I feel,

I can do what I want; I'm in complete control

That's what I tell myself! I got a mind of my own,

I'll be all right alone, don’t need anybody else!

But damn your eyes!

They're taking my breath away; for making me wanna stay

Damn your eyes

For getting my hopes up high; making me fall in love again!

Damn your eyes!

I take all of it,

I won’t break, I will pass under each test & misery you put me through,

I will surrender to solitude,

I will walk the lonely route of dessert with a smile on my face.

But at the end of it all,

Would you be standing there to receive me?

Will you bruise the wounds I am getting through all these?

Or you will just pass by like stranger?

Oh Love,

I won’t be able to take it,

Cause I have a heart, too. Or probably memory of it being there…

As last I remember I had offered it to you…

Is it??

Sitting alone after a long time..!!
Rather sitting with myself with no predefined issue to think about..!!

What do I have today??
Whom do I have today??
Where do I stand today??
Where am I going today??
What the fuck??!!
Nothing, no one, nowhere, don't know????

What will I have tomorrow??
Who will be my side tomorrow??
Where will I stand tomorrow??
Where will I be going tomorrow??
No clues??!!! Will I achieve all I desire?? All I deserve?? What the heck am have been doing till now??

Did I urge for the wrong things??
Did I trust the wrong people??
Did I choose the wrong place??
Did I walk on the wrong path??

I have been giving my best to deliver for everything, everyone, everything, everywhere.. But still today I sit here empty handed, empty heart, clue less, direction less..!!???
What have I done?? Was I wrong in my efforts anywhere?? Was I less for everyone I tried to make happy?? Did I care less?? Did I?? What was wrong?? Why did do all these?? Am I a fool?? Why do I feel all these?? Was I wrong from the first place?? Then why did it feel true every second, every effort, every dream??!!
Was it all fake??
Is it??!!

Again..

Love Lies

Love lies.
And I was never in love.
I will deny it every time you ask.
I will say "No."
I will say "It didn't mean anything."
I will say "I'm fine."

Love liesIn your fingertips as you trace
The curves of my body,
Memorizing every turn. 
And I was happy.

But suddenly I'm screaming and
Holding my head in my hands
Because I can't remember how to breathe.
And I'm pounding my dashboard because
I can't handle listening to this song anymore. 
But I don't like the silence.

Love lies,And I didn't ask for this. 
I didn't mean to spit my heart out so close
To your feet because you keep stepping on it
And I don't think you even realize it. 

I don't want to lean into your words
As they fall from your soft lips
Because I know that they're false. 
And it makes me angry as hell. 

I guess this is what I'm saying:
I don't need you. 
I don't want you. 
I was never yours. 

Love lies.
And I was never in love.
I will deny it every time you ask.
I will say "No."
I will say "It didn't mean anything."
I will say "I'm fine."

I am the one..

I am the kicked.
I am the punched.
I am the stabbed.
I am the healed.

I am the victim.
I am the savior.
I am the demon.
I am the angel.

I am the injured.
I am the scarred.
I am the pure.
I am the dark.

I am the light.
I am the broken.
I am the mute.
I am the blind.

I am the disabled.
I am the deaf.
I am the lie.
I am the truth.

I am the glutton.
I am the lust.
I am the greed.
I am the envy.

I am the wrath.
I am the sloth.
I am the pride.
I am the void.

We are the victims.
We are the abused.
We are the unseen.
We are the unheard.

We are the forgotten.
We are the used.
We are the unimportant.
We are the invisible ones.

I am the weak.
I am the strong.
I am the willful.
I am the spiritless.

I am the hope.
I am the light.
I am the child.
I am the happy.

I am the prince.
They are the dragon.
You are the princess.
They are the tower.

I am the strangled.
I am the mangled.
I am the mutilated.
I am the murdered.

I am the hanged.
They are the judges.
I am the defendant.
I am the guilty.

They are the jury.
I am the criminal.
You are the audience.
And no one is the judge.

I am the peace.
I am the order.
I am the discord.
I am the nothing.

I am the abused.
They are the abuser.
You are the witness.
I am the victim.

I am the nothing.
I am the silence.
I am the unseen.
I am not here.

Hey You

Music with this

If I .. Would you!!

Listening to 'what if?' by Coldplay..

Anything

Promise

On the Road

Take off those shoes you wear,

Get upon it get some eyes,

Run your self about; and call one out for me..

Don’t worry walk the morning breeze; it’s showers until then,

And in the few short months away I will be back with you again.

You don’t need to talk so slow, you can reach me where I go,

so let’s enjoy tonight cause then I will be on the road again.

I will be on the road again.

Still a little hot in here, sweat the reason out of me,

while every creature hides it’s face, you just lie there in your peace,

and in the chaos all around,

you don’t move, don’t make a sound,

sit like that stop clocking town and watch the sun go down.

And every step I try to take, just reminds of mistake,

and if you mad, that’d be right, please forgive me I’d be nice,

so let’s enjoy tonight cause then I will be on the road again.

I will be on the road again.

I will be on the road again.